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and people move on, even though they dont want to… just for the better.
Its been a couple of weeks since my last break up, and i think ive been handling it pretty well, I realized even though i think he was the first one i may have fallen inlove with, that i still should move on for the better. Knowing that we can still be great friends is fine with me :) I found someone new, yet theres alittle peice of him stuck in my heart. Its okay, i guess its suppose to be like that. But ive tried to move on, and his name is Rocky. Hes been there for me when through the breakup and tried to make me feel better, i can tell him anything, we were very close best friends before Me and my ex broke up, and i feel like he really should be the one that deserves me, not saying that Jonathan didn’t, but Rocky went through alot just to keep me happy each and every single day and i guess i realized he was there for me all along. He may not be Jonathan, but i have to atleast try to move on, because if i dont, i dont think ill be able to live a great life. I shouldnt look at the bad things in my life rather then the good things, and i thank Jonathan for coming into my life, but now i guess i have to move on, cause really im not sure if theres a chance that we may see each other daily, like how i see Rocky. I guess things happen for a reason, and although i have moved on, there are times when i still think about Jonathan. But its okay, friends forever gives out a nice ring to me and Jonathans relationship.
i know id end up crying, really hard, but its okay :) I know its over between us, but im glad were just great friends. I know your just one of those people who cant take these long distance relationships and i tottally understand that, if your not ready that i dont want to force you, i just want to blog about this, and dedicate this blog to you, in thanks. Today will be the last day were together, and i guess this is just a thank you and until the next time we’ll love again blog. I just wanted to thank you for coming into my life, for making me smile, for being there for me when no one else was, for being there when my mom was sick, for actually caring for me. Making me feel like the most special thing in your life. We may not be with each other again, but i myself am willing to wait, willing to wait, no matter how many girls you find, fall inlove with, get married. I’ll be always there, because you left something special in my heart, you made me realize that id do anything to keep you alive, no matter what happens i’ll always be here for you. Ill always remember as the almost lover. You tell me ill find someone like you, but really if i did, no one could cope up to how great you were to me. I would wait for you, wait for the day where we can see each other more often, where it wouldnt be too hard like how it is now. I will wait and if that day does not come, ill just smile and look back and be happy because atleast i experianced alittle bit of how it would feel to be with you for the rest of my life, to kiss you, to be held by you, and to hold each others hands. I just want to thank you for every single thing youve done to make my life so happy, from waking up each morning to go to school knowing i have someone like you to realizing each and every night that you really are amazing. Making me cry is a good thing, because if i didnt cry this hard right now as i type this last blog about how much i feel about you, i wouldnt have realized that you really were something, you were my other half this past month, and i cant ever forget that. I think ill be single for a very long time, because i dont think i would find someone like you for a very very long time. It would take years to find someone like you, prob. more then years, because i cant find another Jonathan Gulo. Even if i tried to force myself to be with someone, i wouldnt feel the same. Just thanks, and ill always be here for you no matter what, no akwardness. Love you best friend :)
Always and forever,
Charisse Trinidad.
So its probably been a while since ive actually blogged about what Ive been doing lately, just been super busy this week, with high school, clubs, stress, and hanging out with new friends.
So this friday i went to greenwhich with shirley, catherine, and rocky, to meet up with other people, like ruzxian and mary. First we met rocky’s friend Francis at his apartment, then We all went to mary’s house and hungout outside, talking to her for a while with her sisters. Mary’s thinking about coming with my this Friday to new jersey :D Then we went walked to Mcdonalds and then we ate french fries, after we ate, before we left, two boys went up to us and said hey my name is Jose, and my name is Juan, and then Rocky goes, my name is PEDRO. LMFAOOOOO. Me and Francis were dying of laughter ! By the way everyone here is Filipino exept for Shirley and Catherine lol. But yeah, after we went to play some volleyball and basketball, it was superduper fun !
Then Saturday comes, Demika (also filipino) came with me to newyorkcity today, me, her, and my mom took the train. It was Demikas first time taking the subway, i was like WOAHHHH. lol. Nico thinks shes cute pahahha ! PEDOOOOOOOO. wait no nevermind, hes a senior too, and shes in my grade. LOL. if i called Nico a pedo, id be calling my boyfriend one, woops ! SORRY :O! lol. It was me and Demika’s first time trying White Castle Saturday, it wasss yummy (; Then we went to her house and hungout with her 2 older sisters and their friends Jeffery & Mercy, then 2 other people came, i forgot their names, and we played a little bit of beer pong, i stopped after i felt sorta tipsy because i didn’t wanna come home drunk. For some odd reason, ive been drinking a lot lately, and i barley drink…. ahhh gotta stop.
Then today came ! Ehhh, it was pretty borrrinnnnggggggg, went to church then back home, and now im on the comp. Lovely :P I miss jonathan alot, im prob. seeing him this friday, im getting a ride to jersey city to see him with Anne ^__^ She has a friend who knows how to drive and can bring me, i hope lol. Demi & Demika might come too. i hope i see Jonathan, im dying not being able to see his cute face :P Some things have gotten in the way, but im trying to fix it as much as i can, cause i dont like how things are going, i hope it turns back to normal… like how it used to :/
well thats all for now, ill try to inform you guys about more things later. Bye :D!
you used to tell me you loved me, what happened to the times when we were so inlove.
maybe if i dream, that we are together, happy, our hands intertwine, with no states nor distance that keep us from being together. I would smile, and my heart may actually be complete again, but once i wakeup, and i see you not there next to me, it sinks to the most lowest level on this planet.
Just Maybe if I told myself everyday that I don’t miss you anymore , it’ll eventually happen … maybe .
Because missing you is the hardest thing to go through.
i feel like somethings very wrong…
inside of me i feel like, somethings just not right, not right at all.
There must be something not quite right, somethings going on.
I may be just thinking too much though, ehh, i should stop thinking.
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all i can say is that their amazingly good <3 I need their new album/booklet -___-
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